"Quero sair do meu corpo! Estou farta de mim. Sempre tão igual a mim mesma. Farto-me mais a mim mesma, comigo própria, do que com todas as outras pessoas juntas. Não deviamos estar limitados a um só corpo e a uma só identidade. Sou tão pouco... Quero mais, quero mais de mim. Quero ser o que goza, quero ser o que se ri, quero ser o indiferente e o humilhado. Quero ser aluna, professora e funcinária. Quero ser soldado dos dois lados duma guerra. Quero ser um drogado, um ladrão e um sem-abrigo. Quero ser pobre e quero ser rica. Quero ser louca e psiquiatra, juiz e julgada. Quero ser julgada e absolvida por um crime que não cometi, cometendo-o. Quero saber... Quero saber o que é ser cada um dos homens. Quero viver o seu passado e os seus sonhos para o futuro. Quero ser todos os homens, sendo eu mesma, porque, afinal, não o saberia ser se não sendo eu própria. Quero ser tudo, sendo nada. " Escrito por mim algures em 2008
ahah :') é mesmo *.*
ResponderEliminarThank youuu <3
what makes you believe i am scared? what am I scared of?
ResponderEliminarI won't be offended, you can tell me :) in portuguese, if it helps.
ResponderEliminarOh okay, let me see... You thinking that I'm being afraid of what others might think of me, or...? Cause yes, people don't need to know a lot about me to know I am afraid of what people think of me, my clothes, my points of view, my tastes, etc. :) Thank you for thinking I am not a bad person :')
ResponderEliminarThough I am learning how to deal with people and all those facts I keep writing, I am still afraid. A lot. My heart bumps everytime I see people looking at me, laughing around me, writing stuff on twitter, facebook, blog. Yeah, I'm kind of a paranoid person, which is pretty hard for me to deal with. Hard for me to be happy like this.
Was it this? Or afraid in some other way?
Judgments are the harder thing though. I am learning, and I'm so glad you have your best friend with you right now. I'm sure she'll make you feel better. You're both really sweet, intelligent and good people.
ResponderEliminarI have my Lunas too, they are my mom and my sister. The ones who are judgment free, because they know me, they know what I don't know, and that's why I am so lost without them.
I am talking to you now. I trust you. Whenever you need to talk I'll be around too. (:
It's always hard, but it's also good, because that way I can appreciate them even more.
ResponderEliminarThank you for everything. ♥