Passei meses sem escrever... triste demais para o fazer, mas este caderno era para momentos assim... Antes escrevia coisas cheias de esperança... aquela esperança que não é mais do que a fé. Mas a minha fé foi-se, ou talvez nunca tenha sido, de facto. Mas foi quando deixei de ter fé (ou de querer ter fé) que deixei de escrever... Talvez por medo de mim própria, do monstro que vive em mim e que eu passei todo este tempo a abafar. Quando consegui voltar a escrever, era tudo menos bonito. Aliás, é tudo menos bonito. É tudo menos bonito mas é quem eu sou... Agora é que eu sou! E tenho medo. Tenho medo de mim, tenho medo de te magoar. Medo de fazer algo sem pensar (que já está mais do que pensado). Medo de estar a escrever para que compreendas o que se passou... porque quando houver algo para explicar eu não vou estar para o explicar... Sei que és a única que possivelmente compreenderia! Sei que é pela tua amizade que continuo a viver. * Para Sempre * « As estrelas são bonitas por ...
ahah :') é mesmo *.*
ResponderEliminarThank youuu <3
what makes you believe i am scared? what am I scared of?
ResponderEliminarI won't be offended, you can tell me :) in portuguese, if it helps.
ResponderEliminarOh okay, let me see... You thinking that I'm being afraid of what others might think of me, or...? Cause yes, people don't need to know a lot about me to know I am afraid of what people think of me, my clothes, my points of view, my tastes, etc. :) Thank you for thinking I am not a bad person :')
ResponderEliminarThough I am learning how to deal with people and all those facts I keep writing, I am still afraid. A lot. My heart bumps everytime I see people looking at me, laughing around me, writing stuff on twitter, facebook, blog. Yeah, I'm kind of a paranoid person, which is pretty hard for me to deal with. Hard for me to be happy like this.
Was it this? Or afraid in some other way?
Judgments are the harder thing though. I am learning, and I'm so glad you have your best friend with you right now. I'm sure she'll make you feel better. You're both really sweet, intelligent and good people.
ResponderEliminarI have my Lunas too, they are my mom and my sister. The ones who are judgment free, because they know me, they know what I don't know, and that's why I am so lost without them.
I am talking to you now. I trust you. Whenever you need to talk I'll be around too. (:
It's always hard, but it's also good, because that way I can appreciate them even more.
ResponderEliminarThank you for everything. ♥